would talking about it help?
Feb. 23rd, 2025 05:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
newandexcitingshapes well, it probably can't hurt, i guess
(cw for medical stuff, vomiting, diet stuff, weight, etc.)
i kind of didn't realize just how potentially dire this whole thing was until i talked to kit about it, kit having a lot of experience with weird medical shit and advocating for herself as a patient. so i figure i should probably do something about it. so i'll preface with saying i am calling the doctor tomorrow.
to refresh, i have (we're pretty sure) gastroparesis, which is like...a gastrointestinal condition that has something to do with digestion and stomach emptying and the muscles in my stomach or something? the long and short of it is that it makes me nauseous often and means i throw up more than i'd like. which is obviously zero, i'd like to throw up zero times a week, if that's an option.
i've been dealing with symptoms of this for a couple of years but it really has ramped up in the last six months or so. nausea! and gagging involuntarily a lot, which means i have to gauge whether this is a gag that leads to throwing up or just a random one that i can settle. really specific stakes in this game of russian roulette.
i think i mentioned this last post, but i went to my primary care doctor last week, and he said they can't prescribe me the usual med for gastroparesis because of one of the psych meds i'm on, apparently they interact badly. so for now we've got me on a couple nausea and reflux meds, including zofran. but he also started me on mounjaro to lose weight and help control my blood sugar better. and theoretically losing weight could help with the gastroparesis, too.
mounjaro is the same kind of med as ozempic, and ozempic made me really sick the last few times i took it after a couple years of being on it (and it may be the origin of the gastroparesis in the first place, isn't this fun) but mounjaro is supposed to have fewer side effects, if any.
took my first dose of mounjaro on tuesday and between then and now, i have thrown up uhhhh five times. twice daily on friday and saturday. i'm keeping a log now. also it made my skin hurt, but i'm less concerned about that, you might imagine.
it's like, the mounjaro suppresses my appetite (fucked up fucked up fucked up i have many complex feelings about weight loss medication but not enough mental energy to get into it right now) and so far it has worked incredibly well, which is bad but also good, i guess, in the technical sense? it's both. but it means i have had trouble getting myself to eat much all week, like at one point i got out some potato chips for a snack and changed my mind and had to put them back because the smell was making me feel ill and i wasn't even hungry, i just knew i hadn't eaten enough yet that day.
and then on top of not having an appetite/struggling to eat anything, i've been throwing up half the time anyway? so like, i am having a really bad time. this is not even explicitly bringing in my issues with food that i already had, lol. lmao even.
so i have felt like absolute garbage all week. brain hasn't been working either, which i didn't quite realize until kit said it, but it's probably because i am genuinely starving? like how is my brain supposed to function if i can't hold onto any carbs and calories.
i have been able to keep down smoothies most of the time. drinks aren't really a problem so i've had chocolate milk and stuff. right now i'm working on a protein shake and if that doesn't bother me i might get brave enough for some toast or rice later.
i'm just really really tired, guys. i haven't been able to DO much of anything but scroll and watch youtube/insta reels because my brain just isn't working and i'm hanging onto kpop for dear life to try and have one thing that is fun and happy-making right now. i mean i'm already depressed also, but adding into the fact that there were multiple times this past week where i'd eat something and it wouldn't even last half an hour? somebody old yeller me.
but anyway. i'm gonna call the dr tomorrow and see what the fuck we can do about this because it's obviously not sustainable and i'd really like to not go to the hospital.
thanks for listening, sorry this was boring sad and gross.
(cw for medical stuff, vomiting, diet stuff, weight, etc.)
i kind of didn't realize just how potentially dire this whole thing was until i talked to kit about it, kit having a lot of experience with weird medical shit and advocating for herself as a patient. so i figure i should probably do something about it. so i'll preface with saying i am calling the doctor tomorrow.
to refresh, i have (we're pretty sure) gastroparesis, which is like...a gastrointestinal condition that has something to do with digestion and stomach emptying and the muscles in my stomach or something? the long and short of it is that it makes me nauseous often and means i throw up more than i'd like. which is obviously zero, i'd like to throw up zero times a week, if that's an option.
i've been dealing with symptoms of this for a couple of years but it really has ramped up in the last six months or so. nausea! and gagging involuntarily a lot, which means i have to gauge whether this is a gag that leads to throwing up or just a random one that i can settle. really specific stakes in this game of russian roulette.
i think i mentioned this last post, but i went to my primary care doctor last week, and he said they can't prescribe me the usual med for gastroparesis because of one of the psych meds i'm on, apparently they interact badly. so for now we've got me on a couple nausea and reflux meds, including zofran. but he also started me on mounjaro to lose weight and help control my blood sugar better. and theoretically losing weight could help with the gastroparesis, too.
mounjaro is the same kind of med as ozempic, and ozempic made me really sick the last few times i took it after a couple years of being on it (and it may be the origin of the gastroparesis in the first place, isn't this fun) but mounjaro is supposed to have fewer side effects, if any.
took my first dose of mounjaro on tuesday and between then and now, i have thrown up uhhhh five times. twice daily on friday and saturday. i'm keeping a log now. also it made my skin hurt, but i'm less concerned about that, you might imagine.
it's like, the mounjaro suppresses my appetite (fucked up fucked up fucked up i have many complex feelings about weight loss medication but not enough mental energy to get into it right now) and so far it has worked incredibly well, which is bad but also good, i guess, in the technical sense? it's both. but it means i have had trouble getting myself to eat much all week, like at one point i got out some potato chips for a snack and changed my mind and had to put them back because the smell was making me feel ill and i wasn't even hungry, i just knew i hadn't eaten enough yet that day.
and then on top of not having an appetite/struggling to eat anything, i've been throwing up half the time anyway? so like, i am having a really bad time. this is not even explicitly bringing in my issues with food that i already had, lol. lmao even.
so i have felt like absolute garbage all week. brain hasn't been working either, which i didn't quite realize until kit said it, but it's probably because i am genuinely starving? like how is my brain supposed to function if i can't hold onto any carbs and calories.
i have been able to keep down smoothies most of the time. drinks aren't really a problem so i've had chocolate milk and stuff. right now i'm working on a protein shake and if that doesn't bother me i might get brave enough for some toast or rice later.
i'm just really really tired, guys. i haven't been able to DO much of anything but scroll and watch youtube/insta reels because my brain just isn't working and i'm hanging onto kpop for dear life to try and have one thing that is fun and happy-making right now. i mean i'm already depressed also, but adding into the fact that there were multiple times this past week where i'd eat something and it wouldn't even last half an hour? somebody old yeller me.
but anyway. i'm gonna call the dr tomorrow and see what the fuck we can do about this because it's obviously not sustainable and i'd really like to not go to the hospital.
thanks for listening, sorry this was boring sad and gross.
